Emotions

Trying to think of the words to describe how I feel

Emotions is all I know

It's the warm swells that envelop my body

It's the joy that radiates my face

It's the desire to know you more

I lay here and I'm alone

My mind's eye fills the space with your image 

I want to feel your presence close to mine

I want your heat to warm my cold empty sole

It's frowned upon

But I smile because of it

Oh what the people would say

I don't care

They can stare, question, and lust

With you close to me

Your eyes 

Your smile

They give you away

I can see that young school boy

Hiding beneath the skin

I smile

You smile

What's wrong with that?

So what if I'm young

So what if you're old

There's these feelings inside

They're hard to explain 

They're emotions deep within

I'm scared to admit

You and I seem one and the same

Do you know how I feel?

Do you see it on my face

Or in my body language 

What will happen now

I lay here and wonder

Where does the path lead

I am Changing

life changes 

it moves it’s route like a river bed

bending and curving all the way

I’m comfortable

it changes, it moves,

it’s gradual

I notice

life changes

it’s better, it’s worse

do you understand?

I don’t, but life changes

I love, I hate, I don’t care at all

I am, I am not, I am here and now

Life changes

what does one want

what does one need

who am I

I do as I’m supposed to

life changes

my heart is broken

it needs mending

I know not what to do

life changes

I sit

I brood

I listen to the world

I listen to my sole

I hear the truth

Now I know

I am changing